### Chains Well I was upbeat and homeward bound, with the real world, a whole world away. And after school, that afternoon, wearing the jeans with those grass stains ...that's when it came. The chains. Another link, another pain. That chain. Mix with bad news, what have you to lose? A childhood? Your life? Your brain? What do you lose to the chains. Well my memory, is quite foggy and, surely we were unaware the next, thing that would come, lest the news, the hum, that buzzing sound, when it's too much, for a young mind to fathom. Too much to bear, yet here we wear... The chains...another... Another link, another stain. That chain. Mix with bad news, what have you to lose? A childhood? Your life? Your brain? What do you lose? What could you lose, to... the chains. And this old chain link will make you think of a better time before. A little bit more freedom or innocence of youth...and you'll yearn for, you’ll beg for, another taste for more...or the truth...do you really want the truth? The chains. Another link, another stain. That chain. Mix with bad news, what have you to lose? A childhood? Your life? Your brain? What do you lose? What could you lose, to... the chains. That chain. Mix with bad news, what have you to lose? A childhood? Your life? Your brain? What do you lose? What could you lose, to... the chains. ### Apropos Now here I prattle on, romanticize the suffering attempting to forget what he did last And here I battle on, mental gerrymandering all in hopes that this too shall pass… And I can't help but notice the way you walk on water. It's such a shame, such a shame that our heroes falter.... What a mess, this view from zero, But in the end, I guess it’s apropos. ...in the end, I guess it’s apropos. Still I prattle on, romanticize the suffering attempting to forget our broken past. And here I battle on, sympathetic pandering all in the hope that this shall pass… And I can't help but notice the way you walked on water. it's such a shame that our heroes falter... Still I prattle on... Here I battle on... Here I battle on... And such a mess, down here at ground zero, But I guess it’s apropos. I guess it’s apropos. ### Unravel in My Sleep My mind these days been all caught up on dying, it's secret knots unravel in my sleep. And I don't know just when or if I'll find 'em, for safety pray the Lord my soul to keep. Yet I'm fascinated by what will come hereafter, the moment that I cease to run this race. Will the bright light shine for me and beckon, and will I...get to see his face. I don't need answers, even though I'm sure I'll beg for them. Mind these days caught up on dying, it's secrets all unravel in my sleep. But I don't know if I'll find 'em, so I pray the Lord my soul to keep. And I'm fascinated by what's coming after, moments after I cease to run this race. Will bright lights shine and beckon, and will I get to see his face. I still don't need an answer, though I'm sure I begged for them... All I need is you to listen, just listen to me vent. I still don't need an answer, though I'm sure I begged for them... All I need is you to listen, just listen to me vent. I need to vent. I don't need an answer, though I'm sure I'll beg for them... All I need is you to listen, just listen to me vent. Please let me vent. Please let me vent! ### A Void Exposed I spent two years plus a decade learning everything I could about you, Then thirty more later, now I've forgotten more than I knew. Yeah two years plus a decade, learning everything I could about you, Then thirty more later, now I've forgotten more than I knew. And I trusted you. Arms out, eyes closed. I trusted you. Falling backward. A void exposed. You'd avoid the consequence of all your choices made here by leaving. And you could lie to yourself now, if you were here, if you were here and breathing. It’s not just a story. It’s a damned tragedy. You tell a story enough times and you think that’s the last time I’ll tell that version. Suicide should be confronted face on, maybe not the same old, bottled up emotions. You'll ask yourself how did I make it or am I just a monster behind this mask; And sadly the truth is much more tragic, 'cause in all these years no one has ever asked... I'm still a monster behind this mask, because no one has ever asked... still a monster behind this mask, because no one ever ever asks. But I don't blame you. Please have no doubt. I realize that it's a real tough topic to talk about. I will not blame you. Please have no doubts. I know it's a challenging topic for us to talk about. ### Harder to Love If you could be the one who would've saved you. Could you? Could... Have the courage you needed too. Would you? Would you? Oh...the harder to love the more they need it. a double edge sword to lead defeated. the harder to love the more they need it. It’s a powerful drug, and they’ve conceded. the harder to love the more they need it. No bleeding heart, just a heart that’s bleedin’ the harder to love the more they need it. the harder to love the more they need it. So if you could be the one who would've saved you. Could you? Could you? Have the courage you needed too. Would you? Would you? Oh...harder to love the more they need it. a double edge sword to reach defeated. the harder to love the more they need it. These walls so high, but love can reach it. the harder to love the more they need it. No bleeding hearts, just a heart that’s bleedin’ the harder to love the more they need it. the harder to love the more... I need it. I need it. ### Half We got cut in half when you left us there. Now I'm half a man, now half an heir, to a fortune of sadness, and this blank dead stare, all these unanswered questions, but I guess...“life’s unfair.” I don’t know if I’m supposed to think of this in terms of happy thoughts or sad, remembering you, remembering, remembering... Half shattered and half a stone, hardened by what life has done. You don’t know what you left and I guess you never will, but now it’s only half the time that your memory haunts me still... And I don’t know if I’m supposed to think of this in terms of happy thoughts or sad, remembering you, remembering you, remembering you, remembering dad. ### Destined for Sad Songs And so here, I guess we're destined for this To put down our pen and raise a weapon. But I’m not ready yet not even a little bit Can we just pause for one second...please. Please. Cause I’d rather die in my sleep say my soul is yours to keep, Lord. I'll be grateful for every last tear. And I'll sing each sad note, to witness that You're close, we're destined for sad songs while we're here. For these sad songs hold more meaning than you could ever know. But so you know... Now it seems that every thing has lost all its meaning. I could be wrong. So, I’ll just digress, try and translate the mess into another sad, sad song... And I’d rather die in my sleep, say my soul is yours to keep, Lord. I'll be grateful for every last tear. And I'll sing each sad note, to witness that You're close, we're destined for sad songs while we're here. We're destined for sad songs while we're here. He's closer to the broken. ### Break These Chains The troubled sit alone, most times in dark clothes, misfits that won't fit in. I'm painted, waiting, playing the fool. Like Jack just sitting, waiting, wishing, how to play by these rules...but never win. I never win. To this day your shallow haunts me, but I'm surviving. These demons that we slay with impeccable timing. Conform to their twisted ways, we did not break free but... I won't let you define me, it's not who I am! Rise above and show you, show you that I can! Slay the demons, embrace the pain! I'll find my strength, and break these chains! No longer on my own, out the darkness, lightning glow, Misfit who carved his space. Now guiding, providing, standing true. Like Marley's "Redemption," breaking through...and now we'll win, now we'll win. To this day your shadow haunts me, but I'm surviving. These demon we all slay with impeccable timing. We'll defy their twisted ways, we will soon be free and... I won't let you define me, it's not who I am Rise above and show you, show you that I can. Slay the demons, embrace the pain, I'll find my strength, and break these chains I won't let you define me, it's not who I am Rise above and show you, show you that I can. Slay the demons, embrace the pain, I'll find my strength, and break these chains I won't let you define me, it's not who I am Rise above and show you, show you that I can.